I did chemo today. It was no surprise ya but it still burned like I was in hell and I was so damn sick afterwards. I don't know how I did it but I manage to sleep for a coule hours. I think it was more like passing out then sleeping. I even got my own puke bucket! Later on I'll design it and make it sweet.

The last couple days I've been hanging in the Psychward and try to make other friends in some other room but I don't even want to try anymore because I get people telling me I should give up and stop wasting tax dollars. So ya I'm staying in the room forever and not going to try and make friends anymore.

I started playing this game called MapleStory, Bryan told me about it and it's kind of fun, I'm already lvl 11 and it's getting fun. It's something I can play when I don't have Wii or something.

So...erm ya...this girl named Caitlyn in the chatroom and I have to say, she is the cutest girl I have ever seen, ever. She's got the most beautiful eyes, nose, hair, and amazing voice and laugh. Did I say she's got an amazing body? Everytime she gets up I get this feeling inside and geeze she is just amazing. I'm not scared to damn admit it, I got mad crush on her.

But she lives in FL and I'm here in CA then going home to VA. She's 17 and I'm way young and sick. I don't know what to think, to say, I just get all giggly around her.

Her name is Caitlyn and I'm head over heels man.

I was doing pretty ok I guess for most of the day, I got the Wii in my room now and Super Smash Bros and Star Wars and played 4 hours of it before I passed out. Then I woke up and played more games and watch the movie Igor, it's kind of funny.

This is my week in the hospital and I'm in my own room now. I don't have a roommate and no one can visit me except for nurses and some volunteers who gets to come and play with me when I wanted to or ask them. I like it here, the place is nice, but just like to go outside sometimes, I guess I will have to wait. After chemo I got more sick and sick then I puke so much I can't eat anything and even drinking water makes me puke. Everytime I put something in my body like drinking water, I puke it all back out. I hate that after taste in your mouth and the smell makes me want to puke even more.

The nurses here are really nice and most of them are really funny too. They know what to say and jokes to say to cheer me up sometimes. The doctors here are nice too and even make radiation fun when we play StarWars and pretend we're using light sabers and fight. Since Dad can't be here till the 24th to visit, I talk to Emmy a lot online, play a lot of video games, watch a lot of movies and TV. Yesterday I joined Stickam because Emmy said there are a lot of people there that are really nice and can keep me company when she can't. I joined and a lot of cool people there, I like it there.

But still...I feel so sick these two days and I just got another IV today to keep me hydrated. I get less of the happy button and more fluids. The nurses said when I really can't handle it, I can call them and they will give me shots of morphine to make me feel better. But I guess it's a good thing, with the happy button, I can press it anytime and I guess I can go overboard.

I got so sick today I didn't have time to make it to the bathroom to throw up. I feel bad that some guy got to clean it up, I didn't mean to. The nurses told me if I still can't keep food down pretty soon they're going have to give me this feeding tube so I still get the nutrition I need. I guess I'm ok for now..

I'm tired and I don't feel good at all, I wish Dad was here. But it's almost the 24th, I'm counting down.

Hey

So I guess this is the first post so I'll tell stuff about myself.

Erm. My name is Devin and I'm 13 this year. I lived with my parents and my Golden Retriever, Dash. We live in Norfolk, VA. My parents are amazing. My mom is caring, loving, everything you can ask for while my Dad is strict but in a good way I think. My parents both worked. I don't remember what my mom did but my Dad is in the Navy. I was happy crazy boy most of the time, I like to try different things and I am really curious about everything.

I don't remember a lot when I was a kid, just know I was always running around playing sports and I like to hang with my Dad especially when he took me to work. Everything was good till I started feeling sick when I was 6 and I just remember going to the hospital a lot then one day my parents sat me down and told me that I was sick. They said I have a bad bug in my head and the doctors were going to make me feel better. They said it's going to take a long time for me to get better. I just nodded and gave them a hug.

I really didn't know what was going on between the migraines, getting treatments like chemo and radiation, and getting surgeries. I just knew I was getting sick enough I couldn't go to school and my friends can only come over when I'm feeling ok. Then I remember my hair started going away and I just got so sick sometimes I'd cry in my mom's arms for hours. By the time I was 8 or 9 I started to understand what cancer was and decided I really want to beat this thing.

Other than being sick I did a lot of kid stuff. I knew I wanted to be a Marine so I joined Young Marine when I turned 8. My Dad talked to a couple people and though I was sick, they allowed me to join and do what they do every weekend. I remember the first time I put on the YM uniform, it was just the best feeling and no matter how sick I was I always had fun when I meet up my friends during YM.

Then one day I remember sitting in class when my Dad came and picked me up. He told me that Mommy got hurt really bad and she didn't make it. She was on her way to pick up some jello (something I really like to eat when I got sick, it was the only thing I could keep down) when she got in a car accident. I got to the hospital and saw my Mom in bed and she was already dead. I remember crying and then my Dad told me it's going to be ok and that the two of us will always remember Mommy.

So now I'm 13, I go to school when I can and when I can't I have teacher's aid who come in and help me. Soon I will be doing my 3rd round of chemo and radiation and hopefully I can go home soon to be with my Dad and friends.

So ya...that's bits about me I guess. I can't remember anything else right now that I can write.