I pray that my family and people we know overseas are keeping their heads down. Please stay safe everyone, this is one dream I don't want it to come true. 

I talked to my bro Xander for a bit, I feel better. Just still waiting on Dad and maybe Xander's right about why Dad's working so much. Still living like I'm dying and I'm having loads of fun doing it.

My butt's still numb from last night lol

Oh and I'm trying to do a 360 in my chair, don't call me crazy, it's doable. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NJvgT60-mk

It's at 2:30 if you don't want to watch the stuff in the front.

As soon as I can get more space, I'm doing the 360.

I got done with a lot of different homework today and watch a bit of Family Guy on my computer. Now I think I'll take a break and have fun playing with my chair for a bit before I do more homework. I kind of feel like Joe now, it's kind of funny. If only life can be like Family Guy, that'd be fun.

I woke up with a lot of pain and hurting today and coughed up some nasty stuff. It's ok I guess, I'll be alright.I even talked to Deshi too and he talked about writing me in his book. I don't care, whatever works. I don't like people writing about me anyways...there are way too many good people other than me that he can write about.

I don't feel too good, I'm going to go lay down and watch some Family Guy.

I've been getting use to my chair, I like it, really. It's more than laying in bed and thinking about the idea of dying in bed. If I die, at least I go out with a bang. Like I flew down the stairs in my chair and crack my head or something. I finished a lot of homework that I missed and emailed them to my teachers. If I get to get to 8th grade and finish, that would be awesome. I'm listening to a lot more music now than I used to and a lot less time on the computer, watching TV, goofing off and actually doing what I need to do. Maybe this, "You're dying" thing were meant to make me want to change my life a bit.

I also listen to more songs about life and how someone should live through life. "Live Like You're Dying" is extremely close song to me now and well...I think I'm going to try my best to live out like that. Just trying to be good now and make good memories before shit really hit the fan. But then it'll be like Dad said it, "When shit hits the fan then hits you in the face, take it, wipe it off, and ask for more."

For people who's been asking...sometimes you can't ignore the elephants in the room. You just have to learn how to ride on their backs I think...

Then I'll get off and hope that everyone will be ok.

So I did my last round of chemo yesterday and my doctor came and talked to me today. He said a lot of things and even showed me pictures of my brain and my body of the entire scan. I don't know why he did that but it was pretty cool, my first time seeing pictures. Before Dad gets to do it and this time I got to it was kind of cool. But what he said didn't surprise me. The chemo did kind of help a little, it helped with the tumor sitting in one of my lungs but it still didn't help with the entire picture. It's like painting your room but you were going to do the whole house. He said I can't do surgery this time, he said we can either do more chemo and radiation or he'll let me go home and bring loads of meds with me and a nurse will come and help me take meds everyday. He emailed Dad so I'm just waiting for Dad to answer now. 

If you ask me I'd rather be home with Dash, I bet he's so bored. Then go to school, have fun with my friends, and wait till Dad get home and just have fun. But I'm not an adult so I can't make the decision, I'll just wait for Dad. 

 

Thanks to Erik for helping me through all this chair stuff while I'm getting use to it. Great job on the Olympics dude, thanks a bunch. Check out his site: http://www.gimp4liferacing.com/

Isn't it cool? I think it's awesome and Erik even told me about spinners, maybe I'll get it if I have enough money. I like it, Dad, I really do.